Sometimes even to live is an act of courage

Sometimes even to live is an act of courage. Lucilius Annaeus.

I have been told time and time again that I am a very courageous person. That I have overcome so many terrible things and have lived to tell about it. Yet sometimes I have a really hard time believing that. I have even found myself suicidal at times mainly because I have felt like I cannot deal with all the tragedies and hardships that I have endured.

Well, all that has changed since I read the quote at the beginning of this blog post. I really have a tendency to really take life for granted and I don't always appreciate it. I know now that my entire life has been an act of courage. I have overcome so much and have lived to tell about it.

I only hope that I can hold on to that concept. Sometimes living causes more pain then the thought of suicide. But that would be way to easy. I have lived in a world that at times did not want me and it has taken way more courage for me to hang in there then I ever thought possible.

I am so proud of myself and I do believe that I am a brave woman who can do just about anything that I want.