Our" Fuzzy" Little Friend

Free scrapbook made with Smilebox

I still remember like it was yesterday. We went shopping for Taeler's 6th birthday party. At this time in her life Taeler was having alot of problems adjusting to the many different changes in her life.

So, we decided that it would be nice to buy her something extra special for her birthday. We all decided on a cute fluffy white guinea pig that we saw in a pet shop. If only I knew how much this little animal would really change my daughters life.

Taeler fell in love with him immediately and she decided to name him Fuzzy. These two became inseperable. I was so happy to finally see my little girl smile again. He was worth every penny that we spent on him.

Divine Embrace part four

" The secrets we have to tell are not just the cowering secrets that have closeted themselves in our innermost selves, but the childlike ones that are eager to throw open the front door and run out to play. Our sorrows are not the only secrets that we keep. Our joys are often kept carefully guarded, too, especially our joys about Jesus, who is of all our secrets the most telling and the most precious we have to tell."

I am really not sure what to say about this passage but "WOW." I love passages that really hit home and say it all in such a short amount of time. I love how the author makes it clear that we have many different secrets. I totally agree with these. I know that some of the recent struggles and heartaches that I have gone through have been kept secret. I also know that many of the joys I have experienced have also been kept secret.

I believe that a lot of this has to do with the fact that I am an introvert. I love being alone and I often keep to myself just because that is who I am. That is who God created me to be. I also know that God has used that in many different ways to minister to others and I am sure that there have been many times that he has used that quality about me when I did not even know about it.

I only hope that when those moments come in life where I have the chance to share Christ with others that I take it with confidence. I also hope that I would be effective in how I present Christ to others.

A Precious Memorial

Over the last month or so I have really been working hard at getting through the miscarriage that my husband and I experienced this past December. I have to say that nothing in the world could ever prepare you for the pain that a miscarriage can cause. My husband Matt and I did not know that we were expecting again but it still hurts just the same. And I often think that maybe had we had the miscarriages before our two children that we have now then maybe the pain would not have been so intense.

I thank God every day for the children that we have. We are truly blessed by them and we really could not have asked for better kids. I realize though that this probably happened now because we do have children. Perhaps, God allowed this to happen now because we have the children. They have provided an incredible amount of support for us through this time and I am not so sure that I would have made it through this time without their unconditional love and at times overwhelming concern for me and my well being. They keep me going each day even when I want to just throw my hands up in the air and give up.

I made this video in memory of the two babies that I lost. Its just another thing that I felt that I had to do to help me grieve this loss.

I also want to thank every person who has supported us through this time. We would not have made it without the continual support and love that you have given us. God Bless you all. Christine

This slideshow design made with Smilebox

Divine Embrace part three

As I was reading through this book I came across another passage which really spoke to me. The chapter was titled The Music of the Dance. Here is what it said:

I need the music, too. I need it in different ways on different days. I need it for strength. On others, for courage.

I totally agree with this statement. In order for me to dance I do need the music and depending on what is going on in my life I need certain music to completely express what it is that I want to say to God.

But dancing with God. Now that takes on a whole new meaning. What kind of dance would that be? Perhaps, I am not even dancing with him but dancing as he watches. But as I have recently learned God does not just want to sit by and watch. He eagerly longs to dance with me.

As I look at this a little closer in my mind, the picture completely changes. I can see myself as a little girl in a tiny pink dress with pigtails in my hair, I am holding his hands and I find myself dancing perfectly with him never missing a step. As I look down I then discover that I am simply standing on Jesus' toes.

Perhaps this is what God really wanted me to see. He wanted me to realize that he is leading me in every area of my life just like that dance floor. And in some ways I guess you can say that he is carrying me more than leading me.

What a comfort that is. Especially at this very moment in my life.

The New Pool Adventures

At the beginnig of the summer, we finally broke down and decided to buy the kids their own pool. Now, we really thought that this was a good idea because they love swimming and they are always trying to get us to take them to the pool. Well like everyone else we cannot afford to take them to the pool every day and when we figured it up we would actually be savng money over time by buying our own pool. That and are kids are just down right spoiled.

I just knew that they would enjoy this new investment, but I was not prepared for how much they would really enjoy it. Then you throw in the fact that my husband Matt is probably the biggest kid of all and it just spells disaster. The other night I was inside cleaning the kitchen when my little Hunter came running in yelling Mommy, Mommy you have to come see what daddy is doing in the pool.

Now I have been married for eight year now and I have to say that he never fails to surprise me with what he comes up with. I only feel sorry for his mother because I can only imagine what type of kid he was.

Here is what I saw when I went into my backyard....

The Divine Embrace part two

As I was reading the second chapter in The Divine Embrace I came across a passage in there that spoke to me like nothing has ever spoken to me before. The book was simply talking about how God is able to take care of your every need even though life is hard sometimes.

My husband Matt and I recently had our second miscarriage this past year. It happened exactly one week before Christmas. This of course left me feeling completely helpless and alone. What on earth had I done again to deserve this? We didn't know that we were pregnant again but it still hurt just the same.

In the book the passage that spoke to me said: " As incredible as it seems, there is a place over the rainbow, where the dreams that you dare to dream really do come true. Until that day, we must live our lives under the rainbow... Where the road ahead is not made of yellow bricks. Sometimes it has no bricks at all. Only the sharp edged remains of our shattered dreams."

Interestingly enough, I had recently decided to name the second baby Noah and for that very reason. The rainbow. What a great gift for me this book has been so far. Now I have a Lilly and a Noah waiting for me in Heaven. But until I get there I must go on living my life below the rainbow of my two precious angels.

The Divine Embrace

I am currently reading through a book that a friend let me borrow titled The Divine Embrace. As I was reading through this I came across this passage that truly left be breathless. This is what it said:

"Imagine yourself in a ballroom. Imagine that the Emperor, the Lord Jesus Himself, has tapped your shoulder. Hear his voice as he speaks your name and asks you to dance. As the Emperor draws you near, look into his eyes. Place your palm in his and follow his lead."

"Listen to the Emperor Waltz" and allow yourself to be swept away."

As I read this I had to take a moment and allow myself to catch my breath. This literally took my breathe away.

When I first read this I closed my eyes and imagined myself in this beautiful white dress like Cinderella wore. As Jesus asks me to dance I can see myself begin to cry as I ask myself "Why on earth would He ever want to dance with me?." Then I allow myself to trust Him and he allows me to experience the one thing that I have not been able to experience in a very long time. SAFETY. Safety is something that takes a lot of effort for me to feel in life. I was able to let my guard down for the first time in a very long time and trust that Jesus would take care of me right where I was. Even in the midst of the current storms that surround my life.

I encourage you to take that same journey and see what it is that God has to show you as he asks you to dance.